Defiant Lamb

Words & Music by Bob Bennett

© 2000 Bright Avenue Songs (ASCAP)
Reprinted/Posted by Permission
All Rights Reserved

COINS THROUGH MY POCKETS, DAYS THROUGH MY FINGERS
I CANNOT FIND THEM, TRY AS I MAY
FOR I HAVE SPENT THEM ON FOOLISH PLEASURES
IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY SO FAR AWAY

NOW I AM WANDERING ACROSS THIS LANDSCAPE
WALKING IN CIRCLES BY MY OWN CHOICE
NO FIRE IN THE HEAVENS, NO WIND IN THE TREETOPS 
I CANNOT SEE YOU OR HEAR YOUR VOICE 

  WHEN I'M OUT HERE ON MY OWN
  SURROUNDED AND ALONE
  WHEN I SQUANDER YOUR MERCY
  AS AN UNGRATEFUL MAN
  CAN YOU STILL FIND ME
  HIDING IN THE CORNER?
  INNOCENT CONVICT
  DEFIANT LAMB

I SHOULD KNOW BETTER, THAT'S WHAT I'M THINKING
PLEADING IGNORANCE WON'T DO FOR ME
I'M NOT MISTAKEN, I'M NOT MISGUIDED
THIS ROAD I'VE TAKEN DELIBERATELY

SO WHY AM I RUNNING? I'VE GOT EXCUSES
BUT NO GOOD REASONS TO EASE MY SHAME
I AM NOT WORTHY TO BE YOUR SERVANT
TO LIVE IN YOUR HOUSEHOLD, TO BEAR YOUR NAME

  WHEN I'M OUT HERE ON MY OWN
  HAUNTED BY THE HOME
  THAT I ONCE KNEW SO WELL
  AS A GOD-FEARING MAN
  CAN YOU STILL FIND ME
  THIS GREAT PRETENDER?
  BEHIND THE MASK
  A DEFIANT LAMB

I THOUGHT MY HEART WOULD BE LIKE A GARDEN
WHERE LIFE WOULD SPRING UP FROM SEEDS YOU'VE SOWN
BUT LITTLE BY LITTLE, THE THORNS TOOK OVER
AND NOW MY HEART HAS TURNED TO STONE

THAT'S WHY IT'S EASY TO BE SO CARELESS
BETRAY THIS BIRTHRIGHT FROM ABOVE 
TO CURSE MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR
HURTING SOMEONE YOU TRULY LOVE

  WHEN I'M OUT HERE AND ALONE
  IN THIS VALLEY OF DRY BONES
  MY PRAYERS ARE MIRAGES
  AND MY "FAITH" IS JUST A SCAM
  WILL YOU STILL FIND ME?
  IS THERE A ROAD HOME 
  FOR A BANKRUPT BELIEVER
  DEFIANT LAMB?

  WHEN I'M OUT HERE ALL ALONE ...
  A DEFIANT LAMB